One of my stocking stuffers at Christmas was a copy of Hello! Canada. The horoscope, unfortunately, resonated with me:
“The task that lies before you may look so vast that you’re tempted to give up, but …you can throw your pessimism away. So roll up your sleeves! There’s work to be done and you have the expertise and energy to do it. It’s not like you to feel defeated. Beneath the surface of doubt lies a bright spark of hope. You might need to give yourself a good talking to, and if you succeed, you’ll make excellent progress…”
There’s definitely work to be done and I have the expertise to do it (at least, most days I think so), but I’m so worn down by the never-ending volume and intensity of work that I’m having trouble finding that spark of hope. The week before last I was feeling really, really defeated and in need of some pick-me-ups. So, a week ago Friday, I dragged my husband and younger son to a local family restaurant. I had a delicious candied salmon spinach salad and a cold glass of Dirty Laundry dry rosé. (The winery was named for its close proximity to a former legendary laundry operation that was a front for a brothel and gambling establishment!) Somehow, I still felt crappy, so I bought myself a cappuccino and a chocolate muffin. Still felt crappy
and also way too full. When I got home, my husband said, “Oh, you’ve got mail….from Ireland!” Now that was a pick-me-up! Straight from the Guylty Treasures Workshop, whose world-wide charitable program is designed to RAise the spirits of down-in-the-dumps fans! Thanks, Guylty! The postcard and the badge came just when I needed them!
Now, wouldn’t it be great if someday I needed the badge for a fan meet-up? That’s another thing that picked me up over the last week — all the wonderful pictures of a certain bearded, leather-clad actor and the lucky fangirls who attended the Red Dragon convention! Checking out all the tweets preserved and presented by Serv starting here left me feeling much better, and from there I got really lost browsing pictures by @teeth233 as compiled by Veloce. More recently, I’ve started combing through the pictures and impressions recorded by Guylty, and I see to that her travelling companion, Kate, is feeding us her experience bit by bit. Nice to have all of this to pore over when I have a few minutes free from work.
I can’t seem to focus on books, but I have a favourite TV show on DVD that I watch. You wouldn’t think a show about murder would be relaxing, but somehow Medium starring Patricia Arquette and Jake Weber is that for me. It’s something about the way that the medium, Allison DuBois, and her husband, Joe, are just so normal, in spite of her dreams that help to solve murders. Their arguments are so true-to-life, as are their problems with their kids and the fun that they have together. And I love that Patricia Arquette was allowed to have her weight fluctuate and just look like a normal-sized working mom. A couple of years ago, I used some birthday money to buy the whole series, most of which I haven’t seen, and I watch it an episode at a time. With 130 episodes, it’s lasting me quite a while!
On Tuesday, I guiltily stole some time for myself and went to see A Star Is Born, which is still in one of the 19+ theatres in the area. Unfortunately, I got there just as the movie was about to start, so I wasn’t able to get a glass of wine, just popcorn and a pop. Why did I think that a tragedy would pick me up? Frankly, I was thinking more about the music and the love story, and I wasn’t disappointed. It really is a good movie and deserves all the award nominations that it is getting. By the time the tragic events came, I was feeling them like a gut punch.
The acting was convincing, with Lady Gaga and Bradley Cooper (channeling his inner Kristofferson) having great chemistry, and Sam Elliott and Andrew Dice Clay were believable too. I enjoyed the soundtrack (La Vie en Rose is fabulous) and thought that Bradley Cooper did a fine job with the singing. And I’d forgotten just how good looking he is — I didn’t even think about RA once that evening! I’m looking forward to seeing Cooper and Lady Gaga singing together at the Oscars. They had a trial run of it at her Vegas show, where in a turn-about from the movie, she was the big star inviting the newer singer up on stage with her! The chemistry they have together is evident here (he starts singing at around 1:20):
Finally, the other thing I did this week was binge-watch Russian Doll on Netflix. (Thanks, Serv, for putting the idea in my head!) It’s a dramedy created by and starring Natasha Lyonne, with Charlie Barnett. It took me half an episode to get into it, but then I became seriously addicted! Good thing it was only 8 half-hour episodes! Basically, we meet Nadia in the bathroom at her 36th birthday party and follow her through her evening until she gets hit by a car and dies! And then it starts all over again at the same place, but with variations. It is so addictive because you have to see what will happen each time and whether she will unravel the reasons behind the endless loop she seems to be stuck in. A really unique show that is fun to watch.
So, am I out of the funk that I had fallen into? Well, I feel a bit better and maybe more resigned to just trying to get through all the work. Hopefully, there will be a light at the end of the tunnel and it won’t be a train!